They keep telling me it will get better...

I know I can't change them.... and they will never either. But sometimes the crazy is more than I can bear. This is one of those times. Word to the wise, terminal illnesses have weird side effects. Primarily, mental or subconscious effects. Personality quirks seem to be magnified. And it is absolutely maddening! It's been a bumpy ride the last few months. Throw on a gnarly fire season and my will was tested. It's taken a few months to get it together. I will admit that I am not there yet, but getting close...

some day...

Someday...
Some will  let me love and breath..

so dark...

Seems like nothing is flowing right.

testosterone will kill you

If your attendence isn't required... Then ask the question...?

one day...

Terminal parents are way more than a handful...
They can be really mean too...
I don't know what to do anymore......

one day...

Terminal parents are way more than a handful...
They can be really mean too...
I don't know what to do anymore......

It's been a hard summer

Contending with a parent that was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer is proving to be a bigger challenge than I expected.  How could anyone know what to expect...
Truth is she is scared and it is presenting itself in a multitude of ways.  I feel like I hardly know her anymore. She looks the same.... But she isn't.

I needed this...

I just had an amazing week in Moab. My jeep is awesome therapy!!!

can't breathe

Been too consumed. Struggling to hang...